There is nothing easy about this. Everything in me is fighting to give up trying to make this change and just go back to bed. Accept defeat.
Why do I need to do this anyway? What’s the point?
The alarm clock started blaring at 5am again, and I could feel my old patterns trying to take back control.
As soon as my eyes opened, the voice was there. Just go back to sleep, it whispered in the dark. You’ll have time to do everything you want later today. There’s plenty of time.
If it wasn’t for the fact that my alarm clock strategically sits across the room, I may have hit the snooze button unconsciously and drifted back to sleep in an instant. But for now, I was up, fumbling in the dark to find the “Off” button.
Ah! — silence at last.
I felt groggy, my eyes heavy, eyelids struggling to stay open. I rubbed them, trying to coax them into focusing, but they kept falling shut.
I searched the dresser for the sweatshirt I knew was laying there somewhere as my feet found their way into the slippers sitting on the floor beside the bed. Armed with a layer of warmth, I took a deep breath and walked out of my room.
I couldn’t think of a single reason to stay up, but I walked over to the couch and turned the lamp on anyway, signalling the start of my morning routine.
The first thing I try to do each morning is meditate for 10 minutes. The problem with meditation when you’re on the verge of falling back to sleep is that you might actually do it! The 10 minutes passed quickly; likely the result of drifting in and out.
Of the parts I do remember, that voice was back, telling me to give up.
You’re tired. Just close your eyes. Everyone else is still sleeping. Why not you?
I was distracted this morning. I couldn’t focus on anything. The pictures on my vision board all blurred together, and they didn’t seem to have the same uplifting charge to them as usual. The same with all the rest of my morning activities. None of them seemed to have any energizing feel to them this morning.
Writing was even worse!
I sat down at the blank screen and couldn’t think of anything to say. What I did write felt flat and forced and just plain boring. It felt too much like efforting, struggling to get the words out.
That’s when I looked to Medium to find some inspiration, and it didn’t take long. (It never does!)
A headline caught my eye:
Your Consistency Today Determines Your Success Tomorrow
Consistency is a superpower. Here’s how to develop it.
This article reminded me of the power of consistency over time. Some have even called it a superpower.
“Consistent people are extremely rare. If you can learn to cultivate consistency in your work, you’ll eventually beat any talent, luck, skill, and even quality — just by being consistent.”
That’s when it dawned on me that it’s okay if my day doesn’t go swimmingly. It’s okay if I struggle. The most important part of it all is showing up.
If your best today wasn’t what you’d imagined it would be, or what you would have liked it to be, it’s okay.
Sometimes our best is just following through and posting the damn article that took you all day to write, even though you’ve been up since 5am. You know it’s not your best work, but you still did what you set out to do.
The article itself may not be much to get excited about — but being consistent is!
Don’t focus on the article that you’re less than proud of. Instead, focus on the fact that you did what you said you’d do.
That, in and of itself, is an accomplishment.
You wrote and you published, even when you wanted to give up, and even when it seemed like there was no point to any of it — the waking up early, the working on yourself, the writing, and especially the publishing.
As Moore says, “Small, seemingly inconsistent improvements, made consistently over time, will create huge results.”
And that’s exactly why I can’t give up now, and neither should you.
Quitting now would mean robbing ourselves of the opportunity to experience the superpower of consistency in action.
Why not let it work its magic?